Real Abortion Stories
These are real stories from the Silent No More Awareness.
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“I took the abortion pills. Within one hour, I knew that everything the doctor had told me was a lie. I was bleeding so heavily, I believed I was dying. I was passing clots the size of baseballs, and I was in the worst physical pain of my life, worse than childbirth. The worst part of my experience was when I was sitting on the toilet and I felt myself pass a clot that felt strange. I looked into the toilet and saw my baby. It had a head, body, and tiny arms and legs. The shame and guilt that I felt at that moment, as I was forced to flush my aborted baby down the toilet, is impossible to describe.”
~ Kayla
“After taking the first pill, I felt relieved that I was no longer pregnant. After about 24 hours, it all set in. I felt my baby’s life leave me. I had believed that it was just a blob of tissue yet to become a life. But at that moment when the pill killed my baby, I felt life leave me. I felt empty, and immediately I knew I had committed the unthinkable. I had killed my own baby, my blood. My baby had given me so much purpose for the few weeks I was pregnant, and I was quick to end his/her life.”
~ Gwen
“Shame, guilt, fear, and now hatred and sadness overtook me. Shame in myself and the shame I would feel if my parents found out about the abortion. Guilt for what I was now fully aware that I had done. Hatred of what I had become after making this most selfish decision. The depression was intense, and I just pushed through each day feeling sad and having no one to blame but myself.”
~ Courtney
“I was given the abortion pill and was told I may get a few cramps. I was not told the excruciating pain I would feel for hours until the sac went through. My abortion was explained to me as something that was common and normal. It was not explained to me the emotional affects and regret I would experience long after the abortion was over. Not to mention the initial abortion felt like I was giving actual birth to a child. I remember when the sac finally left my body. I felt it pass through, and I cried. I didn’t want to flush my baby down the toilet, but I had no choice. That night I also lost a part of me.”
~ Jessica
“Eventually the physical effects of the abortion had diminished, but I was left with a crippling depression in private and forced to pretend that I was okay in public since no one in my life, besides my boyfriend, knew of my abortion. About 3 weeks later, I woke up from a nap covered in blood and still bleeding. I rushed to the ER where I was informed that my body had not passed all of my former pregnancy. A doctor used several giant q-tips to scrape my insides, and I had weekly visits to my OBGYN after that to confirm that my hCG levels were steadily going down.”
~ Patricia
“I went to the clinic alone where I was given about a 5-minute briefing from the doctor & told to return the next day. Upon returning, it was just cold answers and no eye contact. I asked to see the ultrasound… just to see if I felt any connection. I didn’t. I proceeded to get my pills and prescriptions and went home to ‘do the deed.’ I cried so much, I felt so bad inside and couldn’t explain why. I took the pills anyway. Scared and feeling ‘too old to be a mother to yet another kid,’ I cried myself to sleep for days. I instantly regretted my decision.”
~ Kimberly